Two years ago we sat down as a family and made a commitment together that it was time for Jt to go to paramedic school. We could use the little extra help financially and Jt had always wanted to be a "medic". When he was younger and trying to get hired he also made plans to get into school but the week before he started he was picked up as a Firefighter instead. Now he is still a Firefighter but also a Paramedic this is sometimes hard to explain to people but I will try. In the fire service there are generally 4 positions on and engine company; Captain this is the guy who is in charge of operation, Engineer the driver and pumper he keeps track of the engine and drives to calls, when the call is a fire his job is to keep water coming out the end of the hose, then there is the Firefighter Paramedic he is same rank as the firefighter but when the engine gets called to a medical aid, lady fell and cant get up or guy was jumped outside the bar he is the guy in charge of all medical care until the patient is either transferred to AMR or at the Hospital, then there is the firefighter who assists the medic on medical aids he is an EMT in fact all personnel are EMT it is your basic requirement. Now there is a lot more to their jobs then that but that is the basic info but as far as "Rank" there are only 3; Captain, Engineer and Firefighter. So Jt gets a pay raise because now his abilities are more then EMT he can now push drugs give pain meds and do his best to get the patients to the hospital alive. But as a medic firefighter when they go on fires he is equal to the firefighter and still gets to go in to the burning building and fight fire. So my husband very much loves his job and the fighting fire aspect is so much fun for him he can talk fire like I can talk hair its crazy!
Well its time again that our family could use the financial help and even beyond that Jt has almost been at his job for 10 years he is very good at it and one day will make an amazing Captain but he has a work ethic in mind that he does not want to go to that step until he has worked as all the other steps. He wants to have knowledge of all the things he will one day have to supervise. So we have once again made a decision as a family to take the next step. So its study time at our house which means when dad is studying we need to leave him alone and give him quiet time... and actually this go round he has been much better to get study time in while he is at work so it takes less time away from family and when he does study at home he is careful to do it after the kids are in bed and I am busy with my crafts. But with the study time I have notice another side effect that I have just decided to except at this point and that is a one track mind :P lol. When Jt is in study mode he has a hard time seeing anything else around him so his ability to do normal chores around the house to help me out slacks. Like I said I have learned to work with this and to be fair he is aware of it and improved leaps and bounds where only small things don't get done or they just don't get done right away. I have learned that it simply means my job description gets a little longer for the time being and I am okay with that. I cant say I have always been okay with it though :( its taken some personal growth on my part but as long as I get my husband back after the study time is all done Im good. Here goes nothing we will see what comes of it all I am happy that I am at a more peaceful place in my life and now having an 8 year old to be a mimi assistant to my job description also helps :) Bottom line is we need to work together as a family to make things happen we all have our jobs and dads right now happens to be study study study. Thank you for reading.
LT
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
My Hero...
Jt and I have been together for nearly 8 years and he has been a Firefighter all of those. So why is it that I am just now realizing he really is My Hero? I have to admit the fire thing never got me excited in fact it was quite the opposite when my friend approached me about introducing us he started by saying " I have a guy I want you to meet! He's a Firefighter!" lol... apparently this was suppose to be exciting! My first question was how old is he? I was 21 at the time, still young and I am not sure why but for some reason I thought Firefighters were old! (hahaha) Besides what was the chance of a guy my age having his act together already?! So long story very short my friend talked me into meeting him for a double, well actually triple date. Which didn't happen until a few months after he had mentioned it. I was really not even looking to date I was more interested in getting back on my feet after a few bad years. So I went reluctantly.
Well here we are married with children 8 years later. It has been a wild ride with lots of laughs but our share of sad times too. Like last night when Jt went out to the dog run to bring Daisy (our yorkie) aka "Daisy Love" or on some occasions "messy puppy" :) inside for the night. I went off to bed while he went to grab her and just as I was getting comfortable I hear him call VERY CALMLY (which freaked me out already) "Liz, I need you to come here". Now I know I tend to over think things so I went down the hall with nothing in mind... maybe there was some weird bug he wanted to show me :P lol I dont know. When he turned around there he was holding my Daisy limp in his hands! My heart dropped and tears started falling from eyes. My baby, I did not know at this point if she was dead. I started freaking out on him... is she ok? whats wrong? what happen? is she ok? He very calmly said "Liz you need to calm down she is fine, when did she last have food or water?" I reply... Alisa fed her this morning or at least she was suppose to. Mind you I am having trouble believing him that she is ok at this point because she is limp, not moving, looked dead in his hands! He puts her on the kitchen floor next to a bowl of water and she does nothing. I am freaking out in the background, still and finally he had enough. He turned around and very firmly said "LIZ I need you to calm down and go get the phone book we need to find that emergency vet." So of course I start yelling at him that I am not a patient and he is NOT going to treat me like one blah blah blah. I go to the desk but cannot find the phone book. Just imagine if one of your kids were hurt and someone said go do something. I know she is not a child but that is how I felt I did not want to do anything but hold my baby and tell her it would be ok! I finally find the phone book but now the task to find the number is too much I yell at him " I CANT DO THIS YOU NEED TO COME LOOK" so we switch. Her eyes are starting to roll back in her head now, I'm not sure what hit me but at that moment I took a deep breath and just started talking to her " Daisy Love, mommy loves you! You cant leave me! Im sorry! I suck! I love you Daisy love." The best part of my night was when I started talking to her the way I usually do her eyes straightened up and she started to whine. She was loving me back! I wanted to hold her so bad but JT wouldn't let me he wasnt sure what was going on and didnt know if holding her would make it worse. He found the Vet and off they went! I fasted the whole time she was gone! I was so pissed at myself for not double checking Alisa (It wasn't Alisa's fault I am the adult I should at least been making sure she did her chore). I thought to myself my dog is literally dying of thirst right now how can I do anything! So I just sat on the couch and talked to God it took a while but I knew after a few minutes of prayer she was going to be ok. After not hearing anything for a while I text Jt and said I was sorry for freaking out on him, then asked him to please keep in touch. He was really good about giving me updates and after all was said and done they got home around 3am we couldn't go to bed yet though because her temperature was so low the doc told us we needed to keep a very close eye on her that the temp had her very worried that it was more then heat exhaustion and dehydration.
So the point in that... oh wait Daisy is okay very tired today but okay!... the point is Jt was my Hero last night and is more often then not and although I was not into the fire thing too much to begin with and still am not completely warm and fuzzy about it I look back on last night and word cannot describe how absolutely grateful I am that God has blessed me with this man. He is my calm in the storm and oh man do i have some crazy storms! He always keeps me grounded and how amazing it is for me that my husband the "medic" could stay calm, do his job, and save my Daisy Love!! I couldn't be more proud. Thanks again for taking time to read about my life :P Leave a comment I love to hear from you guys!:D
LT
Well here we are married with children 8 years later. It has been a wild ride with lots of laughs but our share of sad times too. Like last night when Jt went out to the dog run to bring Daisy (our yorkie) aka "Daisy Love" or on some occasions "messy puppy" :) inside for the night. I went off to bed while he went to grab her and just as I was getting comfortable I hear him call VERY CALMLY (which freaked me out already) "Liz, I need you to come here". Now I know I tend to over think things so I went down the hall with nothing in mind... maybe there was some weird bug he wanted to show me :P lol I dont know. When he turned around there he was holding my Daisy limp in his hands! My heart dropped and tears started falling from eyes. My baby, I did not know at this point if she was dead. I started freaking out on him... is she ok? whats wrong? what happen? is she ok? He very calmly said "Liz you need to calm down she is fine, when did she last have food or water?" I reply... Alisa fed her this morning or at least she was suppose to. Mind you I am having trouble believing him that she is ok at this point because she is limp, not moving, looked dead in his hands! He puts her on the kitchen floor next to a bowl of water and she does nothing. I am freaking out in the background, still and finally he had enough. He turned around and very firmly said "LIZ I need you to calm down and go get the phone book we need to find that emergency vet." So of course I start yelling at him that I am not a patient and he is NOT going to treat me like one blah blah blah. I go to the desk but cannot find the phone book. Just imagine if one of your kids were hurt and someone said go do something. I know she is not a child but that is how I felt I did not want to do anything but hold my baby and tell her it would be ok! I finally find the phone book but now the task to find the number is too much I yell at him " I CANT DO THIS YOU NEED TO COME LOOK" so we switch. Her eyes are starting to roll back in her head now, I'm not sure what hit me but at that moment I took a deep breath and just started talking to her " Daisy Love, mommy loves you! You cant leave me! Im sorry! I suck! I love you Daisy love." The best part of my night was when I started talking to her the way I usually do her eyes straightened up and she started to whine. She was loving me back! I wanted to hold her so bad but JT wouldn't let me he wasnt sure what was going on and didnt know if holding her would make it worse. He found the Vet and off they went! I fasted the whole time she was gone! I was so pissed at myself for not double checking Alisa (It wasn't Alisa's fault I am the adult I should at least been making sure she did her chore). I thought to myself my dog is literally dying of thirst right now how can I do anything! So I just sat on the couch and talked to God it took a while but I knew after a few minutes of prayer she was going to be ok. After not hearing anything for a while I text Jt and said I was sorry for freaking out on him, then asked him to please keep in touch. He was really good about giving me updates and after all was said and done they got home around 3am we couldn't go to bed yet though because her temperature was so low the doc told us we needed to keep a very close eye on her that the temp had her very worried that it was more then heat exhaustion and dehydration.
So the point in that... oh wait Daisy is okay very tired today but okay!... the point is Jt was my Hero last night and is more often then not and although I was not into the fire thing too much to begin with and still am not completely warm and fuzzy about it I look back on last night and word cannot describe how absolutely grateful I am that God has blessed me with this man. He is my calm in the storm and oh man do i have some crazy storms! He always keeps me grounded and how amazing it is for me that my husband the "medic" could stay calm, do his job, and save my Daisy Love!! I couldn't be more proud. Thanks again for taking time to read about my life :P Leave a comment I love to hear from you guys!:D
LT
Thursday, June 16, 2011
See you in 3...
So today was the first of Jt's 3 days away. Im about to cry just writing that sentence. Things have been rough. I have had a very hectic schedule with clients, volunteer work, house cleaning, summer prep, birthday parties, Bridal Showers and the list goes on. So with such a crazy schedule and then adding in the daily errands like the bank, grocery store, dropping off and picking up the kids there has been very very little time left for My Love and I.
To make matters worse we had quite the argument last night and I wont go into detail but it wasn't fun feelings were hurt communication was lost and honestly if we weren't us I might have been worried :(. Instead of goodnight we said our apologies but that never gives us back our time. I woke this morning and he was gone to work and now here we are separate for three days. Left to sort our feelings out on our own. I received a text from him mid day telling me about the 150 acre fire that was burning I asked if he was heading out he said not yet, gave me details of who and what then nothing for a couple hours I tried calling him but he didn't answer. That left me hurt even more (because Im a girl and I can be a bit emotional at times) So after nothing from him by 5ish I did my girly thing and turned off my phone. I was so hurt that at that point I didnt want to talk to him even if he did decide to finally call. Im sure he had a very busy day... I wish just knowing that would stop my tears from falling but it doesn't. It doesn't ease the pain in anyway... the truth is my husband and I were in a fight that never really concluded and whether or not I like it I have to suck it up and move on because he will be gone for three days and if Im lucky he wont get a call while we are on the phone and have to leave mid convo, leaving me there hurting once again.
So thats that, I never ended up talking to him at all this evening and here I am trying to "process" my feelings... which by the way might I add that all thanks to God I took a mid day break to journal some prayers and to ask God for some peace, THAT he definitely answered!!! I could not make it through this crazy thing they called life without Him!! Ill let you know how tomorrow goes... I'm crossing my fingers!
LT
So the whole three day past with us not talking. It felt easier that way. Without fail when things are intense and we really need to hash it out the station will get a call what happens then is we stop where we are at he rushes off and I sit there in wait until he gets a chance to call me back. This is not an easy thing to do, especially for me since my core sin" is anger. This time though I felt a peace about me which was new and nice! When I felt myself start getting angry or hurt again I pulled out my journal and prayed. The truth is I struggle with leaning on God and instead expect way too much from my husband. He is human and has plenty of faults himself. I am growing in this aspect of my life and it feels good :) When he came home from his 72 (what we in the fire service call a 3 day 24+24+24=72) I had to leave for a 3 day trip to Las Vegas... of course! So more "putting things on hold". I am so thankful for the strength of our relationship, the commitment, and my relationship with God I really do not know how else we would be getting through situations like this! So we finally talked and things were obviously watered down after 6 days we made it through and here we are! I could say I wish things were different but truth be told these are the situations that make us stronger that help us to appreciate each other more and teach us grow, us as a couple. As always thanks for reading leave a comment if you like I would love to hear from you!
LT
To make matters worse we had quite the argument last night and I wont go into detail but it wasn't fun feelings were hurt communication was lost and honestly if we weren't us I might have been worried :(. Instead of goodnight we said our apologies but that never gives us back our time. I woke this morning and he was gone to work and now here we are separate for three days. Left to sort our feelings out on our own. I received a text from him mid day telling me about the 150 acre fire that was burning I asked if he was heading out he said not yet, gave me details of who and what then nothing for a couple hours I tried calling him but he didn't answer. That left me hurt even more (because Im a girl and I can be a bit emotional at times) So after nothing from him by 5ish I did my girly thing and turned off my phone. I was so hurt that at that point I didnt want to talk to him even if he did decide to finally call. Im sure he had a very busy day... I wish just knowing that would stop my tears from falling but it doesn't. It doesn't ease the pain in anyway... the truth is my husband and I were in a fight that never really concluded and whether or not I like it I have to suck it up and move on because he will be gone for three days and if Im lucky he wont get a call while we are on the phone and have to leave mid convo, leaving me there hurting once again.
So thats that, I never ended up talking to him at all this evening and here I am trying to "process" my feelings... which by the way might I add that all thanks to God I took a mid day break to journal some prayers and to ask God for some peace, THAT he definitely answered!!! I could not make it through this crazy thing they called life without Him!! Ill let you know how tomorrow goes... I'm crossing my fingers!
LT
So the whole three day past with us not talking. It felt easier that way. Without fail when things are intense and we really need to hash it out the station will get a call what happens then is we stop where we are at he rushes off and I sit there in wait until he gets a chance to call me back. This is not an easy thing to do, especially for me since my core sin" is anger. This time though I felt a peace about me which was new and nice! When I felt myself start getting angry or hurt again I pulled out my journal and prayed. The truth is I struggle with leaning on God and instead expect way too much from my husband. He is human and has plenty of faults himself. I am growing in this aspect of my life and it feels good :) When he came home from his 72 (what we in the fire service call a 3 day 24+24+24=72) I had to leave for a 3 day trip to Las Vegas... of course! So more "putting things on hold". I am so thankful for the strength of our relationship, the commitment, and my relationship with God I really do not know how else we would be getting through situations like this! So we finally talked and things were obviously watered down after 6 days we made it through and here we are! I could say I wish things were different but truth be told these are the situations that make us stronger that help us to appreciate each other more and teach us grow, us as a couple. As always thanks for reading leave a comment if you like I would love to hear from you!
LT
Friday, June 3, 2011
Summer Time!!!
I am so very excited that my oldest daughter is now out of school! Yahoooooo! Time to get our summer break on! I am so blessed to have the opportunity to be a stay at home mom and be able to take my girls on all sorts of summer adventures! We all sat down yesterday and I let the girls fill me in on their ideas of "what to do" this summer. Surprisingly they had some really cool ideas!
Our goal was not to spend lots of money or drive time. But fun activities that would also expand the girls minds! I am so excited! We have reading times schedule, craft days at the local Micheal's, Learning centers where the girls can have some hands on experience's. It is going to be a fun filled summer! I think not only keeping the girls busy and out of the house is important but also keeping their brains in working order will be so important for them. Not only that but getting lots of time together as a family will help them to build long lasting friendships that as a mom I am more the ecstatic to watch blossom! You know they do have their share of fights but over all they are good girls and you can see the love they have for each other more as they get older!
I cant wait to take pictures of all the things we do and share it with you all! Who knows maybe we will inspire you to get going on your own family adventures!! I hope you all have a great funfilled summer and build lots of happy memories of your own! I think I will also share my love for scrapbooking with my oldest by having her start her own this year! I will let you know how that works out ;) If you guys have any family trips or activities planned I would love to hear about them! Maybe you will give my family some more ideas! As always thanks for ready and Happy Summer!!! :D
LT
Our goal was not to spend lots of money or drive time. But fun activities that would also expand the girls minds! I am so excited! We have reading times schedule, craft days at the local Micheal's, Learning centers where the girls can have some hands on experience's. It is going to be a fun filled summer! I think not only keeping the girls busy and out of the house is important but also keeping their brains in working order will be so important for them. Not only that but getting lots of time together as a family will help them to build long lasting friendships that as a mom I am more the ecstatic to watch blossom! You know they do have their share of fights but over all they are good girls and you can see the love they have for each other more as they get older!
I cant wait to take pictures of all the things we do and share it with you all! Who knows maybe we will inspire you to get going on your own family adventures!! I hope you all have a great funfilled summer and build lots of happy memories of your own! I think I will also share my love for scrapbooking with my oldest by having her start her own this year! I will let you know how that works out ;) If you guys have any family trips or activities planned I would love to hear about them! Maybe you will give my family some more ideas! As always thanks for ready and Happy Summer!!! :D
LT
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