If it's not one wife, it's another...

  Today I face a dilemma. I am VERY sick! I was born with asthma first off, then I had a cold last week, got over it, but it has now turned into bronchitis. No I am not a doctor. But I am an expert I have had this my whole life. Having asthma makes you very prone to other lung problems so it is rare that a cold does not turn into bronchitis for me. The good part is I've learned over the years that the best way to get over it is to cough it up and spit it out! I know thats gross but its true. So most of the time I can get through it without antibiotics. Not the case this time. Thanks to the humidity we had yesterday and the heat today. Plus my lack of rest the last couple of months my body has taken all it can bare for now. So what's my dilemma you ask? Well Jt left for a 72 yesterday. Did I plan on this? NO. Did I want this to happen? NO. But it did. I am left here for three days my chest is on fire, I feel like I have a bolder sitting on my chest I cannot breath, the lack of oxygen to my brain has given me a migraine and is now turning in to full body aches. My stomach is in knots over the stress.

   Here is the problem, like all other jobs Jt has "family sick leave" but unlike other jobs if he needs to use this time someone else is called in. They cant run medical aids without a medic. Its not like "oh its cool the office work can wait till you come back and you can catch up." People don't stop needing 911 when I get sick. So some other wife out there suffers, some other wife has to sacrifice time with her husband. I know all too well how bad it sucks to have your husband work a day you didn't plan on him working. So here I am REALLY sick trying to take care of animals kids errands shopping for 3 days pushing myself to the limit because I know if I make the call and say I need you home its legit, I know that someone else has to fill the spot. It makes it so complicated! To top it off I am very stubborn, very hard headed, and very much do not want to be a burden on anyone! I am sure there are wives out there that do not think this way. If they are sick they make the call. Sure wish I could care less. But I cant, I was not made that way. But for the moment being that I really need to get better so that I can get back to my job as a wife and a mom, I have to release it to God let it go, and make the call. Maybe it sounds a little over the top to say it this way but truth is having the lung issues that I do I cannot afford to put this off one more day. I need to go to the doctor, get on antibiotics, and rest. I cannot do this with three kids who have to at very least eat. I need JT. So to any RFD wives reading this if it is your husband called in I really mean this from the bottom of my heart I am very very sorry :( in MY perfect world I am Wonder Women and I NEVER get sick. As always thanks for reading. For those of you who know me personally and love me I would love prayers for healing this week. I need to get better fast! Thank You!

                                                                      LT