The dreaded "afternoon nap"! If you are married to a Fireman know a Fireman have a son whatever, you know what I am about to talk about! Our life has turned upside down this month we are moving but where and when we do not know. Our oldest obviously started back at school, my clientele has nearly doubled and not to mention on top of my writing two blogs I have added etsy shop owner to my list of "jobs". I also made a very big decision to step down from volunteering in the childcare for my church because I was feeling called to volunteering more with the creative teams and women's groups at our church. OH and did I mention I am also going to be starting to teach gardening classes while co-managing a co-op garden phew! Well I am sure that I've missed a few things I always do there is way to much to keep track of, now let me explain how being married to a Fireman factors into that schedule.
Today we met with our realtor to figure out the details of an offer we got on our house. I needed to have the house semi presentable for new pictures she wanted to take but Jt was working yesterday so I had to clean on top of my "being a single parent" for the day. So I got what I could done and packed another box which was exciting but its hard too because we are not sure when this move will happen so I have to pack what we are for sure not going to be using so the china my summer wardrobe etc. Anyway So Jt got home this morning eyes blood shot and he was spinning this is a normal thing. Blood shot eyes are my sign he has been up a few times through the night, and the spinning is my sign he has had his share of coffee for the morning! So he comes home and of course wants to talk about the night catch up the usually but today we needed to do this while cleaning which is fine since he is all crazy and hyper from the coffee. So we run circles around the house cleaning talking yelling trying to settle back in to "Im married" again. The appointment went well pictures were taken and our realtor leaves. We all sit down to eat lunch and as soon as I am done I went off to do something, OH thts right stress about what else we can get done to move forward with the whole situation. Then I notice it.... the house is dead silent. Yup, its nap time! Instead of getting some packing done cleaning some more running much needed errands, he goes to sleep!!! I use to get so upset! Truth is I cant fight it! He has been trained for 10+ years sleep when you can! His sleep schedule is so out of whack and it will be until the day he dies, I think! I read a story about a Fireman who had suffered a stroke and every time a load noise would go off in the hospital he would wake and start trying to move later he told someone he thought the tones were going off. I've learned the hard way that this nap needs to happen in order to have a halfway functioning husband. Knowing that the nap needs to happen has not made it any easier to deal with. I am a never sleep kind of girl! There is way too much to do, I will go go go until Im dead. I have however learned to appreciate a nap here and there since being married to JT but most days while he is sleeping my stress over what he is NOT getting done while sleeping keeps me way too spun to relax and take a nap along side him. The positive to this is that our kids sleep well and the whole house minus mom are asleep mid day which free's up some time for me to clean, do laundry, relax in the quiet or maybe even write a quick little blog ;) Maybe one day when the kids are older Ill find a way to end up on his sleep schedule but until then I will just have to be content with his crash and burn kind of schedule. Its is like clock work I tell you EVERYDAY right after lunch! To be honest I feel the same way about naps as I do about going pee they are a huge inconvenience I have way too much to get done in a day! Wish he felt the same. Thanks as always for reading I would love to hear what you think leave a comment. Does your Fireman have this same sleep pattern and if so how do you deal?
LT
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
Love Dare Day 16 (Love Intercedes)
Okay so its official I am back on track today's Dare at first seems easy and doable. This chapters simply says that God gives us overwhelming insight into our spouse not so we can constantly nag (Lord knows us women are good at that!) but so that we are able to better understand what to pray for them. So the dare is to pray for three specific things and for privacy purposes I wont be sharing what I will be praying for JT. You know you would think this was an easy dare but truth is I would much rather nag. Its in my nature. Praying on the other hand takes time and effort. I also believe that praying for others is a selfless act. We are surrounded by things and situation that teach us its all about me! I am a very selfish person at heart I have to work at not being this way. So having to pray for him and not nag I am not only letting it go and giving it to God to handle but I am also taking away from me because if I truly give it up then I should stop the nagging, right? I can say this, as hard as this day will be it sure is a walk in the park compared to the "Honorable" day. This one wont stretch me as far! (lol) Selfish I know!! Hey I'm a work in progress!!
LT
LT
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Im giving it all up...
Today has been a day! What do ya know? I know, nothing new right? When is my life not hectic or taking a crazy turn? But today I've been extra sensitive!! I hate being a women on days like this. In a nut shell I had an opportunity arise a couple of years ago that I really have not put much effort into. I have also chose to respect others involved, you know I was careful to not "step on any toes". Today was a huge slap in my face for doing so! Am I upset with the way it turned out? Yes, I've cried about it a lot today. Am I going to let it bring me down? No, or at least I will do my best not to. I know my God has a plan for my life a BIG one and this is a small and simple thing that in the big picture really means jack crap! So now I just have to push past all my girly mushy crappy feelings. Not take it personal because IT NEVER IS and move on. Life is too short and at the end of the day do I care who does the job? NO, I care whether or not the job got done, and in this case it has! Am I happy with the results nope not really but like I said my God has called me to bigger things and I have to be still and know that he is God and my time will come... in fact it already has. So I am giving it all up and I know, that for that, I will be blessed with bigger and better in His sight! Thanks for listening to my little vent session! Good night!
LT
LT
Friday, September 9, 2011
Love Dare Day 15 (Love is Honorable) Part 2
Thats right you read the title right! I am back in the book I will not give up! There are no rules in the front that say you have to do this straight through no break. Or that you have to do a chapter a day! So I am making my own rules which is what I do best (with guidance from God of course ;) lol.
I really was stumped on this chapter like I had mentioned before I was raised by women and all the men around me deserved little to no respect. Well thats not entirely true... my Grandpa and my Uncle Mike but Grandpa lives in Texas and Uncle Mike is in the Air Force and lives in Florida retired as we speak so I didnt get a lot of interaction with them growing up.Let me give an Honorable mention also to my Step Dad Lee who loves and cares for my mom (and we know thats a hard job ;) ;) Love you mom). So point is I have a really hard time in the respect your man department! Not only that but I believe society has taken a huge turn in this department women and men are equal and women are in no way expected to respect their male counter parts. I highly disagree in this belief for two reasons I do have a man that deserves respect he is not my equal he is above and beyond what I ever could be when Im scared at night he is the one to get up and search the house if things get crazy he is my rock my calm in the storm. I will not deny that. I just have a hard time expressing that in words but the feelings are there. So I am going to move on from this chapter and not be so hard on myself. The truth is I love and absolutely respect JT he has been so many things to me that I never had in a man. Id like to add he has met my crazy and he is still here does that not warrant respect? I think if all of us women were honest about it we would realize the same thing. They dont have to put up with us they choose to because they love us. I only know a handleful of women that dont threaten to leave the relationship the minute something ugly about the man shows itself!! Men dont do this ladies. We should give them credit for that! Unless they are a lying cheater and at that point he doesnt deserve respect and you should move on ;) lol please dont take any of this too serious the last thing I need is someone to come up to me and say "Oh I left him blah blah blah". Ok so point being I have yet to get through a whole day where I havent had at least one moment that made me feel like I suck because I disrecpect JT with my words! I have a strong spirit its hard to keep under control! But I have grown a lot so I believe there is hope for me yet!!! Just not perfection right at this moment. Wish me luck I do still have 25 days to go! Who knows what this book has in store for me!!
LT
I really was stumped on this chapter like I had mentioned before I was raised by women and all the men around me deserved little to no respect. Well thats not entirely true... my Grandpa and my Uncle Mike but Grandpa lives in Texas and Uncle Mike is in the Air Force and lives in Florida retired as we speak so I didnt get a lot of interaction with them growing up.Let me give an Honorable mention also to my Step Dad Lee who loves and cares for my mom (and we know thats a hard job ;) ;) Love you mom). So point is I have a really hard time in the respect your man department! Not only that but I believe society has taken a huge turn in this department women and men are equal and women are in no way expected to respect their male counter parts. I highly disagree in this belief for two reasons I do have a man that deserves respect he is not my equal he is above and beyond what I ever could be when Im scared at night he is the one to get up and search the house if things get crazy he is my rock my calm in the storm. I will not deny that. I just have a hard time expressing that in words but the feelings are there. So I am going to move on from this chapter and not be so hard on myself. The truth is I love and absolutely respect JT he has been so many things to me that I never had in a man. Id like to add he has met my crazy and he is still here does that not warrant respect? I think if all of us women were honest about it we would realize the same thing. They dont have to put up with us they choose to because they love us. I only know a handleful of women that dont threaten to leave the relationship the minute something ugly about the man shows itself!! Men dont do this ladies. We should give them credit for that! Unless they are a lying cheater and at that point he doesnt deserve respect and you should move on ;) lol please dont take any of this too serious the last thing I need is someone to come up to me and say "Oh I left him blah blah blah". Ok so point being I have yet to get through a whole day where I havent had at least one moment that made me feel like I suck because I disrecpect JT with my words! I have a strong spirit its hard to keep under control! But I have grown a lot so I believe there is hope for me yet!!! Just not perfection right at this moment. Wish me luck I do still have 25 days to go! Who knows what this book has in store for me!!
LT
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Crazy came back around today...
In the form of a Snake Lizard!! Do you remember the Bunny story? I do CLEARLY!!! Im telling you Mi Vida Loca!! Dude! These things always happen when JT is GONE!! First major animal incident I had was a bird getting stuck in my house! I coaxed him with seed that did not work and quite frankly I really cant remember how I ended up getting him out! Animals, wild in particular tend to LOVE getting in to my house! I feel like Im in the back country its insane!
So I had a semi normal morning. A friend came over for coffee and we ended up balancing and budgeting my bills... FUN STUFF!! Not. Alisa came home from school had her snack and relaxed a bit. I had some little zucchini going bad leftover from my garden so i gave it to the girls to take out to our goat for a snack. While they were down the hill I was standing by the back door, I look down near my cowgirl boots and THERE IT IS!!!! A friggin snake lizard! BIG DEEP BREATH! I hate snakes and I hate them more when they have legs! I will probably have a convo with God on why these were created. I mean I am sure he has his plan he always does. Im just curious because honestly my small little human brain does not understand! So I freak but you couldn't tell if you were watching me. Not yet anyway! lol I slowing open up the back door so that I dont scare him off into the house more and I yell at the girls to stay outside! Of course they come running up "what mom why? whats going on!?" At this point I had just shut the door and locked em out. So I go to the kitchen window, open it and explain to them whats going on. Alisa tells Abby "Hurry, get up on the chair its going to get us!" LOL So my girls are outside on the back porch standing on the patio chairs just like the old ladies in the Looney Tunes commercials used to do when there was a mouse running around! hahaha. I get back to work. I get a big cup and a plate thinking Ill "encourage him" to go into the cup when he does Ill put the plate on top so he cant jump out ( I am really not positive lizards can even jump) Ill carry him outside and viola crisis averted! Uh, yeah, well thats not exactly what went down. I go to "encourage" him into the cup and he FLIES around the cup toward me and then back under a china case I have by our back door!!!!!!! I will leave it to your imagination as to how I reacted to this because anything you imagine could not be anywhere close to how dramatic the scene was at this point!!! Where is a man when you need him!? Oh and can I add to your visual? lmbo! I decided before I started this venture that I should "suit up" with a pair of my horse working gloves (that way he doesnt bite me) and JTs size 15 cowboy boots (my boots that fit me just right were too close to the lizard for me to grab, at least I thought so anyway :/ ) Ok so back on track. He is now under the cabinet. So my next genius idea is "ooh, I know, Ill bring crash inside (this is my husky) and he will save the day! Be the hunter he was bread to be, catch the lizard take him outside and viola! crisis averted!" hahahaha Just like plan A, plan B didn't work out quite the way I'd had hoped! I bring crash in and lure him to the scene with treats (this is where I went wrong!) that was it! He was on ME and those treats like a fly on poop! I even threw some treats at the lizard thinking it will make the lizard run then crash will notice and catch him and we can be done! Nope not so much. I gave up on crash and this is where it gets sad for me! I hate snake lizards but I do not wish to harm or torture them! It was my last hope :/ I couldn't have this thing stay in my house and get bigger then one of the girls find it and get hurt! I took a wooden pole I had lying by the back door and tried to scare him toward the back door he would not budge!!! So I did it!!! I went to hit and kill him aiming for his head so it would be quick! That did not work! I lopped off his tail!! The tail starts bouncing around like it has a mind of is own! I wont tell you what I did at that point other then once again like a cartoon or a movie when someone finds a bug on themselves and freaks jumping and running get it off get it off!! Thats the closest I could describe it! I couldn't take it I had to get him! I go after him again! This time still dont get his head! instead his ARM!! This poor lizard is now without a tail or an arm!! I did the best I could to get him outside and thinking ok crash with finish the job. No he didnt he LICKED!!! thats right LICKED!! it! I am happy to say the tail stopped moving and the lizard was officially dead about 5 minutes later :( I almost threw up I was so sad!!! It was the worst animal experience ever! What else was I suppose to do!!?
I am sure this is not the last time something like this will happen while JT is away. I wish it would be, but it wont! Maybe I will have PETA knocking down my door tomorrow! I saw the snake skin video!! I know!! Its not a good thing! If I could have done it any other way I would have. I just cant seem to shake crazy! It follows me wherever I go! Thanks for reading as always and please dont send me hate mail! I am torturing myself enough for all of us!!
LT
So I had a semi normal morning. A friend came over for coffee and we ended up balancing and budgeting my bills... FUN STUFF!! Not. Alisa came home from school had her snack and relaxed a bit. I had some little zucchini going bad leftover from my garden so i gave it to the girls to take out to our goat for a snack. While they were down the hill I was standing by the back door, I look down near my cowgirl boots and THERE IT IS!!!! A friggin snake lizard! BIG DEEP BREATH! I hate snakes and I hate them more when they have legs! I will probably have a convo with God on why these were created. I mean I am sure he has his plan he always does. Im just curious because honestly my small little human brain does not understand! So I freak but you couldn't tell if you were watching me. Not yet anyway! lol I slowing open up the back door so that I dont scare him off into the house more and I yell at the girls to stay outside! Of course they come running up "what mom why? whats going on!?" At this point I had just shut the door and locked em out. So I go to the kitchen window, open it and explain to them whats going on. Alisa tells Abby "Hurry, get up on the chair its going to get us!" LOL So my girls are outside on the back porch standing on the patio chairs just like the old ladies in the Looney Tunes commercials used to do when there was a mouse running around! hahaha. I get back to work. I get a big cup and a plate thinking Ill "encourage him" to go into the cup when he does Ill put the plate on top so he cant jump out ( I am really not positive lizards can even jump) Ill carry him outside and viola crisis averted! Uh, yeah, well thats not exactly what went down. I go to "encourage" him into the cup and he FLIES around the cup toward me and then back under a china case I have by our back door!!!!!!! I will leave it to your imagination as to how I reacted to this because anything you imagine could not be anywhere close to how dramatic the scene was at this point!!! Where is a man when you need him!? Oh and can I add to your visual? lmbo! I decided before I started this venture that I should "suit up" with a pair of my horse working gloves (that way he doesnt bite me) and JTs size 15 cowboy boots (my boots that fit me just right were too close to the lizard for me to grab, at least I thought so anyway :/ ) Ok so back on track. He is now under the cabinet. So my next genius idea is "ooh, I know, Ill bring crash inside (this is my husky) and he will save the day! Be the hunter he was bread to be, catch the lizard take him outside and viola! crisis averted!" hahahaha Just like plan A, plan B didn't work out quite the way I'd had hoped! I bring crash in and lure him to the scene with treats (this is where I went wrong!) that was it! He was on ME and those treats like a fly on poop! I even threw some treats at the lizard thinking it will make the lizard run then crash will notice and catch him and we can be done! Nope not so much. I gave up on crash and this is where it gets sad for me! I hate snake lizards but I do not wish to harm or torture them! It was my last hope :/ I couldn't have this thing stay in my house and get bigger then one of the girls find it and get hurt! I took a wooden pole I had lying by the back door and tried to scare him toward the back door he would not budge!!! So I did it!!! I went to hit and kill him aiming for his head so it would be quick! That did not work! I lopped off his tail!! The tail starts bouncing around like it has a mind of is own! I wont tell you what I did at that point other then once again like a cartoon or a movie when someone finds a bug on themselves and freaks jumping and running get it off get it off!! Thats the closest I could describe it! I couldn't take it I had to get him! I go after him again! This time still dont get his head! instead his ARM!! This poor lizard is now without a tail or an arm!! I did the best I could to get him outside and thinking ok crash with finish the job. No he didnt he LICKED!!! thats right LICKED!! it! I am happy to say the tail stopped moving and the lizard was officially dead about 5 minutes later :( I almost threw up I was so sad!!! It was the worst animal experience ever! What else was I suppose to do!!?
I am sure this is not the last time something like this will happen while JT is away. I wish it would be, but it wont! Maybe I will have PETA knocking down my door tomorrow! I saw the snake skin video!! I know!! Its not a good thing! If I could have done it any other way I would have. I just cant seem to shake crazy! It follows me wherever I go! Thanks for reading as always and please dont send me hate mail! I am torturing myself enough for all of us!!
LT
Monday, September 5, 2011
Passing the Hat...
So a lot of my blogs tend to be on the more negative side of things. But dont get me wrong there are many perks that come a long side being the wife of a Firefighter too and now I am blessed to add Paramedic. I was able to enjoy two of them today!
The first is not a happy story but it meant the world to me! Anabelle had fallen and hit her head pretty hard today. She is in that exploring stage and not so good on her feet yet! Can I just say to have a Paramedic "in house" who knows what to look for all the symptoms of a head injury it gave me an awesome sense of peace to know that Anabelle was in good hands! When our babies get hurt especially head injuries even the smallest little bump you cant see whats going on inside! Its a terrifying feeling! I was filled with calm. It was amazing! Jt was so calm and patient with her he checked her out the best he could without his "tools" and after some time he said she is going to be fine I just want her to be able to calm down. So thats when I walked away because I know babies are smart and even though I was not freaking out like I most of the time do I still had a very worried look on my face and wanted so badly to take her from him and cuddle her! But I knew it would be best that I left. So I did. She calmed down and he put her down for a nap, making sure to check on her every 20 minutes or so. Those are the moments that are priceless!
The second positive I was able to experience today was the Joy of NOT cooking! lol Actually I did help but Jt did the hard main dish work and the mash potatoes. A Fireman lives at a fire house when they go to work they are going to their second home. As a group they usually cook dinner together. So they learn to cook. I didnt always see this as a blessing when we first started dating and I would go over to his house to cook he would always be up in my business trying to add to or tell me how to do something. Which was an offense to my abilities as a women. I have issues with pride. Now that we have 3 kids a bigger house and animals I have learned to except and appreciate this as a gift knowing that he is not trying to say I dont do my job well its just something he has been trained to do and he enjoys and does it well. I can pass the hat to that :) As always thanks for reading... and yes feel free to be jealous ;) My man cooks! lol
LT
The first is not a happy story but it meant the world to me! Anabelle had fallen and hit her head pretty hard today. She is in that exploring stage and not so good on her feet yet! Can I just say to have a Paramedic "in house" who knows what to look for all the symptoms of a head injury it gave me an awesome sense of peace to know that Anabelle was in good hands! When our babies get hurt especially head injuries even the smallest little bump you cant see whats going on inside! Its a terrifying feeling! I was filled with calm. It was amazing! Jt was so calm and patient with her he checked her out the best he could without his "tools" and after some time he said she is going to be fine I just want her to be able to calm down. So thats when I walked away because I know babies are smart and even though I was not freaking out like I most of the time do I still had a very worried look on my face and wanted so badly to take her from him and cuddle her! But I knew it would be best that I left. So I did. She calmed down and he put her down for a nap, making sure to check on her every 20 minutes or so. Those are the moments that are priceless!
The second positive I was able to experience today was the Joy of NOT cooking! lol Actually I did help but Jt did the hard main dish work and the mash potatoes. A Fireman lives at a fire house when they go to work they are going to their second home. As a group they usually cook dinner together. So they learn to cook. I didnt always see this as a blessing when we first started dating and I would go over to his house to cook he would always be up in my business trying to add to or tell me how to do something. Which was an offense to my abilities as a women. I have issues with pride. Now that we have 3 kids a bigger house and animals I have learned to except and appreciate this as a gift knowing that he is not trying to say I dont do my job well its just something he has been trained to do and he enjoys and does it well. I can pass the hat to that :) As always thanks for reading... and yes feel free to be jealous ;) My man cooks! lol
LT
Being a good example to our children...
I had mentioned on my facebook page that I would write a blog about the experience I had at the grocery store yesterday so here it is. Its not as fresh in my head but I am calmed down so it will probably not come out as harsh as it would have last night. I would like to add though that yesterday was the last of a long 72 Jt came home this morning Thank God. It had been a long weekend. Nothing major had happened and really me and the girls just laid around but I was extra tired for some reason. So it felt long. Alisa had school friday. We went to the park on saturday and of course sunday was spent at church. Sundays are always crazy days for me when JT is gone because I have to get me and the girls ready, feed and water all the animals and be to church by 8:30 a.m. then we are there until about 1pm. This particular sunday was crazy. Anabelle had two "dirty" not pleasant at all diapers and ran out of clothes. So she ended up in church clothing. Then I go to get Abby and her teacher informs me that she "smells"... lol thats what I get for letting her dress her self that morning. I totally did not even realize she put her clothes from the day before back on! Then I go to pick Alisa up from her class and one of my friends tells me that Alisa had been saying how starved she was all morning!!!! LMBO! Seriously! The crazy part is on a normal day this would have caused me to be somewhat of a wreck. But I was actually in a "no big deal" kind of mood. I wasnt embarrassed or upset. Things happen and I know that my kids are well fed well bathed and well taken care of and loved. Besides the fact that none of the people who had told me about each girl knew at all about what I had already had to hear about the other ones.(I hope that makes sense lol) So after that long day then we headed over to the station to visit JT and drop of some tamales I had made. We started talking about a very heated subject and as soon as we start to argue ha wouldn't you know it he gets a call "saved by the bell" NOT!!! So instead of waiting for him to get back me and the girls head home. We all lay down for a nap to catch up on our energy from the crazy morning. I make Abigail change her clothes of course ;) and when the girls woke up we headed to the store for dinner stuff.
I thought since we had a crazy day it would be nice for us all to have some good "girl" time so we decided to make homemade pizza and watch a movie. So I get the grocery list together and we were off. When we got to the store the parking lot was full I thought oh great its packed this outta be fun! Surprisingly once inside I realized it was actually pretty quiet, me and a few other shoppers. So I have no idea why the parking lot was so full. So I go straight to the flour isle. One of the employees was there and right behind me a lady comes down the isle. He asks her if he can help her find anything and she says "yes, birthday candles" he shows her to them a little ways down the isle. Im aware of her and her phone conversation but more paying attention to what I am looking for. She leaves the isle and I find what I am looking for. We move on. The girls are being extra good standing right next to the basket.(This detail is important later) Thinking back its weird because they are usually hard to corral. We head out of the isle and the same lady flies around the corner not paying attention and nearly runs right over the girls! They are sandwiched now between mine and this ladies shopping cart! I get no "excuse me" or "oh Im so sorry" NOTHING!! The girls move over she gives me a dirty look and rushes past! I calmly say out loud "really?" "Alisa are you ok?" (she came pretty close to Alisa Im not sure that she didnt hit her to be honest it all happened so fast) Alisa says "yeah, I'll be ok" and we move on. We head over to get pepperoni's and after that we head to the sauces as Im headed down the center isle this lady comes flying out behind me. I can feel her on my butt and say nothing. As soon as I stopped to turn down the sauce isle she rams into my back!!! This time I stopped and blocked her way! I turned around very calmly and started in "REALLY!!! That is twice now! You are lucky you did'nt hurt one of my kids... please slow down" she yells at me "KEEP YOUR KIDS BY YOU! WHO STOPS RIGHT IN FRONT OF SOMEONE LIKE THAT!?DONT BE STUPID" I was still blocking her way not really on purpose it just so happened to be where my basket was she proceeds to push my basket out of the way and tells me to move out of her way! STILL no excuse me! I then said "Really?! You are being really mean and my kids are right by me!!! she has the balls to say "OH good you listened to me". Oh man BIG DEEP BREATH!!! No i didnt listen to you they have been right next to me this whole time!! Please slow down!! She runs off yelling shut up your stupid stay out of my way!!!! Oh my gosh! I also somewhere in there told her how mean she was being hahahaha where were my curse words when I needed them. ( its still a trip to me that I didnt blow up on this women) thinking back on it and all the things I could have done and didnt I am surprised at myself. All I can say is wow God really can and really does change you! Three years ago or even Five this women would not have been so lucky! She has no idea where Ive been and the things Ive done. Granted I dont know her either but I sure know me and she didnt scare me. So after ALLLLL that would you believe it if I told you... Not ONCE, Not TWICE, but THREE times this women ran into me!!! The third time I got quite a bit more verbal then all the previous! Still though no cussing or being mean! I told her she was lucky she didnt run one of the girls over and break a bone she needed to really slow down! I dont know at this point it felt like we were the only ones in the store besides the employees I was shaking, you know that feeling you get right before you get into a boxing match? lol or maybe you dont. But that's how it felt! She went to check out and I went to grab some wine and fruit. When I was done and went to check out she was leaving and you could tell she had told the cashier as much about it as she could before she left. I wanted to cry!!! The cashier asked me how are you today? lol Uh been better thanks! Then God gave me a sweet glimmer of hope. A cute little old lady gets in line behind me and says "Oh look at how cute she is, you have beautiful girls" *sigh* then I wanted to cry more hahaha I said a very sincere "THANK YOU" she had no idea how special that was to me at that very moment! When we left I thought that crazy lady is now behind the wheel of a car! She cant drive a shopping cart Lord knows how she drives a car! So I warned the girls to stay VERY close to the cart! Not that I thought the lady was going to run us over on purpose I simply thought wow she was in a rush she probably is going to rush in her car too! It ened up being a really great lesson for my girls! We teach them to say excuse me and thank you and also calling people names like stupid is not aloud in our house and since this lady broke all our rules the girls got to see first hand how rude it really can be and how ugly and nasty it looks! I still thought all sorts of horrible things! Then I had a thought and I know its that cheesy christian thought but I really meant it sincerely I thought "I really should pray for her! I have no idea what made her so mean but I could pray for her" I still havent lol but trust me this memory wont fade fast! I was literally heart broken! Which is another crazy part and how I know God changed me from the inside out! I wasn't mad (ok a little) but more then anything it just made me sad! Sad for me, sad for my girls to have witnessed and been treated so harshly, and more then anything sad for that women! What has she gone through who has treated her so harshly that she feels the need to treat children that way! Now don't get me wrong! If I felt my kids were in true danger or it had escalated any further I would not have been so nice! I wouldn't have acted irrational but I would have called the cops or something... its simply NOT okay to treat people or children that way! Its called having respect for fellow Human beings and if you cannot find it in you to do that I dont know if I would call you human! I am glad its over and also glad its not the only store in town I wont be going back to that location for a while! Im a little offended that none of the employees said anything. At the end of it all I was very proud of me! I know my girls are watching! I am their example!
LT
I thought since we had a crazy day it would be nice for us all to have some good "girl" time so we decided to make homemade pizza and watch a movie. So I get the grocery list together and we were off. When we got to the store the parking lot was full I thought oh great its packed this outta be fun! Surprisingly once inside I realized it was actually pretty quiet, me and a few other shoppers. So I have no idea why the parking lot was so full. So I go straight to the flour isle. One of the employees was there and right behind me a lady comes down the isle. He asks her if he can help her find anything and she says "yes, birthday candles" he shows her to them a little ways down the isle. Im aware of her and her phone conversation but more paying attention to what I am looking for. She leaves the isle and I find what I am looking for. We move on. The girls are being extra good standing right next to the basket.(This detail is important later) Thinking back its weird because they are usually hard to corral. We head out of the isle and the same lady flies around the corner not paying attention and nearly runs right over the girls! They are sandwiched now between mine and this ladies shopping cart! I get no "excuse me" or "oh Im so sorry" NOTHING!! The girls move over she gives me a dirty look and rushes past! I calmly say out loud "really?" "Alisa are you ok?" (she came pretty close to Alisa Im not sure that she didnt hit her to be honest it all happened so fast) Alisa says "yeah, I'll be ok" and we move on. We head over to get pepperoni's and after that we head to the sauces as Im headed down the center isle this lady comes flying out behind me. I can feel her on my butt and say nothing. As soon as I stopped to turn down the sauce isle she rams into my back!!! This time I stopped and blocked her way! I turned around very calmly and started in "REALLY!!! That is twice now! You are lucky you did'nt hurt one of my kids... please slow down" she yells at me "KEEP YOUR KIDS BY YOU! WHO STOPS RIGHT IN FRONT OF SOMEONE LIKE THAT!?DONT BE STUPID" I was still blocking her way not really on purpose it just so happened to be where my basket was she proceeds to push my basket out of the way and tells me to move out of her way! STILL no excuse me! I then said "Really?! You are being really mean and my kids are right by me!!! she has the balls to say "OH good you listened to me". Oh man BIG DEEP BREATH!!! No i didnt listen to you they have been right next to me this whole time!! Please slow down!! She runs off yelling shut up your stupid stay out of my way!!!! Oh my gosh! I also somewhere in there told her how mean she was being hahahaha where were my curse words when I needed them. ( its still a trip to me that I didnt blow up on this women) thinking back on it and all the things I could have done and didnt I am surprised at myself. All I can say is wow God really can and really does change you! Three years ago or even Five this women would not have been so lucky! She has no idea where Ive been and the things Ive done. Granted I dont know her either but I sure know me and she didnt scare me. So after ALLLLL that would you believe it if I told you... Not ONCE, Not TWICE, but THREE times this women ran into me!!! The third time I got quite a bit more verbal then all the previous! Still though no cussing or being mean! I told her she was lucky she didnt run one of the girls over and break a bone she needed to really slow down! I dont know at this point it felt like we were the only ones in the store besides the employees I was shaking, you know that feeling you get right before you get into a boxing match? lol or maybe you dont. But that's how it felt! She went to check out and I went to grab some wine and fruit. When I was done and went to check out she was leaving and you could tell she had told the cashier as much about it as she could before she left. I wanted to cry!!! The cashier asked me how are you today? lol Uh been better thanks! Then God gave me a sweet glimmer of hope. A cute little old lady gets in line behind me and says "Oh look at how cute she is, you have beautiful girls" *sigh* then I wanted to cry more hahaha I said a very sincere "THANK YOU" she had no idea how special that was to me at that very moment! When we left I thought that crazy lady is now behind the wheel of a car! She cant drive a shopping cart Lord knows how she drives a car! So I warned the girls to stay VERY close to the cart! Not that I thought the lady was going to run us over on purpose I simply thought wow she was in a rush she probably is going to rush in her car too! It ened up being a really great lesson for my girls! We teach them to say excuse me and thank you and also calling people names like stupid is not aloud in our house and since this lady broke all our rules the girls got to see first hand how rude it really can be and how ugly and nasty it looks! I still thought all sorts of horrible things! Then I had a thought and I know its that cheesy christian thought but I really meant it sincerely I thought "I really should pray for her! I have no idea what made her so mean but I could pray for her" I still havent lol but trust me this memory wont fade fast! I was literally heart broken! Which is another crazy part and how I know God changed me from the inside out! I wasn't mad (ok a little) but more then anything it just made me sad! Sad for me, sad for my girls to have witnessed and been treated so harshly, and more then anything sad for that women! What has she gone through who has treated her so harshly that she feels the need to treat children that way! Now don't get me wrong! If I felt my kids were in true danger or it had escalated any further I would not have been so nice! I wouldn't have acted irrational but I would have called the cops or something... its simply NOT okay to treat people or children that way! Its called having respect for fellow Human beings and if you cannot find it in you to do that I dont know if I would call you human! I am glad its over and also glad its not the only store in town I wont be going back to that location for a while! Im a little offended that none of the employees said anything. At the end of it all I was very proud of me! I know my girls are watching! I am their example!
LT
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