Today has been a day! What do ya know? I know, nothing new right? When is my life not hectic or taking a crazy turn? But today I've been extra sensitive!! I hate being a women on days like this. In a nut shell I had an opportunity arise a couple of years ago that I really have not put much effort into. I have also chose to respect others involved, you know I was careful to not "step on any toes". Today was a huge slap in my face for doing so! Am I upset with the way it turned out? Yes, I've cried about it a lot today. Am I going to let it bring me down? No, or at least I will do my best not to. I know my God has a plan for my life a BIG one and this is a small and simple thing that in the big picture really means jack crap! So now I just have to push past all my girly mushy crappy feelings. Not take it personal because IT NEVER IS and move on. Life is too short and at the end of the day do I care who does the job? NO, I care whether or not the job got done, and in this case it has! Am I happy with the results nope not really but like I said my God has called me to bigger things and I have to be still and know that he is God and my time will come... in fact it already has. So I am giving it all up and I know, that for that, I will be blessed with bigger and better in His sight! Thanks for listening to my little vent session! Good night!
LT
Whatever "it" is love, I'm proud of you. It's good to mourn the loss. You're grandmother said "teardrops dowse the flames of the mind" (she came up with a few good ones) and it is so true. This too shall pass. Maybe it was something you didn't really have room for, or right now isn't the time. I'm sorry you feel slighted. I really hope that the rejection was handled nicely and if not that you find find it in you to forgive. You are a very special woman and have so much to offer. I love you.
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