Thats right you read the title right! I am back in the book I will not give up! There are no rules in the front that say you have to do this straight through no break. Or that you have to do a chapter a day! So I am making my own rules which is what I do best (with guidance from God of course ;) lol.
I really was stumped on this chapter like I had mentioned before I was raised by women and all the men around me deserved little to no respect. Well thats not entirely true... my Grandpa and my Uncle Mike but Grandpa lives in Texas and Uncle Mike is in the Air Force and lives in Florida retired as we speak so I didnt get a lot of interaction with them growing up.Let me give an Honorable mention also to my Step Dad Lee who loves and cares for my mom (and we know thats a hard job ;) ;) Love you mom). So point is I have a really hard time in the respect your man department! Not only that but I believe society has taken a huge turn in this department women and men are equal and women are in no way expected to respect their male counter parts. I highly disagree in this belief for two reasons I do have a man that deserves respect he is not my equal he is above and beyond what I ever could be when Im scared at night he is the one to get up and search the house if things get crazy he is my rock my calm in the storm. I will not deny that. I just have a hard time expressing that in words but the feelings are there. So I am going to move on from this chapter and not be so hard on myself. The truth is I love and absolutely respect JT he has been so many things to me that I never had in a man. Id like to add he has met my crazy and he is still here does that not warrant respect? I think if all of us women were honest about it we would realize the same thing. They dont have to put up with us they choose to because they love us. I only know a handleful of women that dont threaten to leave the relationship the minute something ugly about the man shows itself!! Men dont do this ladies. We should give them credit for that! Unless they are a lying cheater and at that point he doesnt deserve respect and you should move on ;) lol please dont take any of this too serious the last thing I need is someone to come up to me and say "Oh I left him blah blah blah". Ok so point being I have yet to get through a whole day where I havent had at least one moment that made me feel like I suck because I disrecpect JT with my words! I have a strong spirit its hard to keep under control! But I have grown a lot so I believe there is hope for me yet!!! Just not perfection right at this moment. Wish me luck I do still have 25 days to go! Who knows what this book has in store for me!!
LT
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