I am starting this book today because I have been searching for something to help me grow further as a wife and friend to my husband! I want him to be proud of me, I want God to be proud of me. Also I am a fighter at heart I want the best and I do not settle I always believe and have faith that if I want something I can get it with hard work and determination. I have seen so much growth in our nearly 8 years together and I can honestly say so much of it was me. As in I was the problem. It started one day when I was washing dishes I remember the moment very clearly! I was standing there doing dishes Jt was at work or maybe paramedic school. We had decided it was time to spend the money and sacrafice our family time for a while so that he could better himself in his career and in turn bring home more money a paycheck it would be a win win, right? Well let me say this, he was very stern about making sure I was up for the challenge he knew the struggles that lay ahead! I was way more focused on YES WE NEED THE MONEY! So I said yes to school and the schedule but I did that not fully understanding. It was a crazy two years Jt was home like 1 day a week and all he did was sleep because his schedule was so hard on him. So with that in mind I still said yes! We went at it together so why then was I sitting there doing dishes cussing my husband out in my head pissed at all the things he did to cause me to be alone for two years left to deal with the kids alone left to deal with teachers at Alisas school alone I was so angry with him. I am pretty sure it was God who slapped me in the face that day. Out of these crazy mean evil thoughts toward my husband a random thought popped in my head... look at you! Look at how angry you are! How fair is this for him he is missing his family working like crazy to try and pay the bills studying like crazy so our hard earned money doesnt go to nothing AND you said YES too!! As soon as this thought hit I stopped doing the dishes I sat down at the computer and I also remember this very clearly! I posted to my fb... "Mom dont answer this one! I need a book christian women friends I am very angry toward Jonathan and its not ok does anyone know of a book I could read". My dear friend Amanda who at the time did not know me that well brought me a book by Dr. Laura "The proper care and feeding of a marriage" this book changed me in more ways then I can count! I LOVE Dr. Laura she is blunt, straight to the point and says what everyone else is thinking but wont say! Love her hate her this book had some really good points! I can say our marriage has been more happy more fulfilling and just plain better since I read this book and started changing ME!! Thats right ME!! So here goes another venture this one is more for fun. I thought if the other book helped me think of him more and not be so selfish maybe this could be good too! So I will be sharing each day with you guys and each struggle I am quite excited but there is a warning in the book to not take it lightly... haha this is kinda hard not to do since I have the cheesy movie stuck in my head! But whatever here goes nothing! I am also going to spin it a bit and try it toward my children Lord knows I could work on those relationships too!
LT
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